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Sunday, November 13, 2005

*coughs*

wow im like a blog addict....probably because most of the time i haf very lil to do. so here i am again. ive been TRYING to get over my unmistackable "depression" for a lack of a better term. i should be enjoying this......silence, this ability to do w/e i want and by myself, at that.


but im not.


this makes me wonder if i should start asking ppl if they wanna hang out? im just so used to ppl asking me to hang out dat im afraid i dunno wat to say if i ask sum1 else to hang out.

:x

i would ask jade-chan but...she phoned yesterday saying she wasnt gonna hang out wid me this weekened so...*stab* i could always ask sum1 else..but...o_o thats a very lil amount of ppl and most of the time their busy and PLUS

big bad factor number 1 - they all live far away!


i think ive regained SOME of my sanity...im slowly pulling myself out of my pool of SELF PITY...wow im actually starting to feel RLLY happy right now

omg i feel like my old carefree self *BATHES IN THE HAPPYNESS*

OMG! =D I LOVE ALL U GUYS *cries* <3

8 Comments:

Blogger Ki said...

LOL, what a very strange mood swing. ure last phrase made me laugh. i should also metion since i'm not anwering comments in my blog but rather answering them in a new post; that i almost almost, broke down when u said, "im sorry jade.." that like...just about broke the dam.

i pulled myself pretty quickly tho.

its good ure happy, r u going to study for the tests....eh...i dont feel like doing it...good luck anyways.

6:10pm

6:10 pm

 
Blogger Ki said...

btw, *curious* do u read the comments and dont answer, like me *except i answer indirectly in a new post*...or u dont read them and post new post??? cuz i've commented in all ure previous ones...watev tho..i dont think they're imp.

6:12 pm

 
Blogger Renae said...

i usually reply wid in a comment..im pretty sure i replied to ur other comments. if i didnt im sorry, it was prob when i was in my weird mood

why did it bring u down? : \ im sorry

8:46 pm

 
Blogger Ki said...

*blushes* i dunno...its more like, ure the first person to sympathsize *killed that word there*....by u saying sorry...it was like....'whoa, this actually happened...' while i was off in some other world.

9:01 pm

 
Blogger Renae said...

well..jade-chan, i always try to sympathize (killed it too) wid u..and i often know that no matter what i say, nothing can make things better...so i say im sorry..im sorry that u hafta be sad, that bad things happen to u...that u hafta be so strong..i wish i could protect u but i dont know how to...im sure im not the only one who feels this way =) i had this feeling that u didnt want ne1 to feel sorry for u...but that's inetivable...so, i didnt say ne thing that may hint to that

i kno wat im saying sounds weird..but i do feel sorry for u, and im sorry if i hurt ur pride...or if im forcing u to face reality..

2:27 pm

 
Blogger Renae said...

i just wish things were better, and that u could be happy

=3 im gonna phone u later today and tell u about the hw...actually i should do that now since u gotta go to work x_x

2:28 pm

 
Blogger Ki said...

*coughs* u didnt hurt my pride...and no it doesnt sound weird, ure comment that is. so um...*coughs* thanksandstuff.

4:23 pm

 
Blogger Renae said...

lol XD k - subject closed then!

6:21 pm

 

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